Suggested Reading: Luke 22:31-34,54-62
In the days leading up to Jesus’ crucifixion, the world turned upside down for Jesus’ disciples. They had finally come to believe that Jesus really was the Messiah, the Christ, the Son of the Living God. They had finally come to accept that Jesus was who he said he was. But they were still a little slow at understanding what Jesus tried to teach them. For weeks, Jesus had been trying to warn them that he was going to be betrayed, arrested, and crucified. He had tried to prepare them for the days when all hope would seem to be lost. But the disciples were so fixated on their idea of a Messiah who would raise up an army, throw off the yoke of Roman oppression and reign over the nation of Israel as the most powerful monarch in the world, that they simply couldn’t accept Jesus’ warnings as literal.
In the days leading up to Jesus’ crucifixion, the world turned upside down for Jesus’ disciples. They had finally come to believe that Jesus really was the Messiah, the Christ, the Son of the Living God. They had finally come to accept that Jesus was who he said he was. But they were still a little slow at understanding what Jesus tried to teach them. For weeks, Jesus had been trying to warn them that he was going to be betrayed, arrested, and crucified. He had tried to prepare them for the days when all hope would seem to be lost. But the disciples were so fixated on their idea of a Messiah who would raise up an army, throw off the yoke of Roman oppression and reign over the nation of Israel as the most powerful monarch in the world, that they simply couldn’t accept Jesus’ warnings as literal.
I can only imagine the turmoil that Peter must have gone
through the night of Jesus’ arrest. He had just sworn to stick with Jesus even
if was he killed, to never abandon him even if everyone else fled. And I’m sure
he felt like he meant it. But then he watched as
Judas brought a small army to arrest Jesus. He stood by in disbelief as Jesus
not only refused to let the disciples defend him but healed the ear that Peter
had lopped off of a soldier while defending Jesus. Peter watched as his
master, who could speak and have the winds and waves obey him, who could call
out in a loud voice and raise the dead, who could push his attackers down with
the power of his voice (according to John 18:1-6), allowed these soldiers to seize him and haul him
off.
That night as Peter followed Jesus from a distance, I can
only imagine the things that must have been going through Peter’s mind as he
watched Jesus mishandled and mistreated. Was this really the Messiah after all?
The Messiah was supposed to become a conqueror, not allow himself to be
arrested and tried by people he knew would rig the jury and seal his fate! The
Messiah should have defended himself from his attackers, not allow them to
capture him! Was Peter wrong? It is no
wonder to me that when Peter was recognized by a serving girl he responded, “Woman,
I don’t know him!” (Luke 22:57,NIV). Perhaps, in that moment, Peter
really did doubt whether he knew him at all. Or when Peter told the next person who
recognized him, “Man, I am not one of them!” (Luke 22:58), Peter might well have
been thinking that following a Messiah who allowed himself to be arrested was
not what he thought he was signing up for.
But when Peter denied Jesus the third time, Just
as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at
Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the lord had spoken to him: “Before the
rooster crows today, you will disown me three times” (Luke 22:60-61,
NIV). Into the middle of Peter’s questions and doubts, into the middle of his
fear and insecurity, the rooster crowed, and Jesus used Peter’s own denial to
prove that he really was the Messiah, the Son of the Living God. When the
rooster crowed, Peter remembered that Jesus had spoken into Peter’s future,
that Jesus had known Peter better than Peter knew himself. And Peter, not
understanding how but knowing that Jesus was the Messiah after all, went out
and wept bitterly for denying him.
No matter what your doubts and questions, no matter what the
surprises God has allowed you to experience or the disillusionment you have
endured because your expectations weren’t met, Jesus wants to reaffirm
today that he is your Messiah, that
he is the Son of God who came to save you. And while he may not meet all of our
uninformed expectations, he is God enough to use even our failures to reaffirm
his identity to us, to take the weaknesses in our lives and prove who he is
through them.
We all have unmet expectations. God never does all of the
things that we expect or want him to do. And while
those unanswered questions and incomprehensible heartbreaks may threaten to
overwhelm us, God is big enough to handle our doubts and our questions, to
speak right into the middle of our troubling circumstances if we allow him to.
If Jesus used Peter’s own denials to prove himself, he can work through your
failures, too.
Thank You
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